Cry Me a River

You are probably sick of hearing how difficult a week this has been for me. I am starting to fall apart at the edges but you guys won’t let me!! My girlfriends have sent me cyber-rope through facebook, so that if I get to the end of my rope, I have something more to hold onto. Some of it is even pink. My twitter buddies did twitter karaoke with me and we sang “I will survive”. My JewCrew have kept an awesome dialogue going that I have tried to follow – maybe when I have 6 years of the Mir under my belt I might be able to follow. My friends, RL ones and cyber ones, have been there for me, quietly giving me support. My own Pink cheering squad. A good friend here has been doing small grocery shops for me.

I lost it last night. Had a real huge crying jag while on the phone to my KoD. Bless him, he listened and didn’t try to fix. He seems to always know the right thing to say. I am not usually this big crybaby. Yeah, I cry at ridiculous commercials, and at weddings, and when someone says something really sweet. But that’s just a few choice tears. Last night was a full on tear-fest. Almost got to the hyperventilating stage that kids get to when throwing their tantrums.

What was getting to me? After a week of Florence Nightingale-ing I have to now think about Shabbat, go grocery shopping and cook. Something I do every week with joy. I am so tired and so worn out that just the idea of it made me shake. I am so desperate for a break. This single mommy thing is wearing thin about now. Add to that I wanted to do laundry and cleaning to day and the apartment building’s water is being turned off between 9 and 4. Fun…not! 4 kids home, and they cannot flush??

The kids will be fine while I pop to the shops. As they are on the mend I will give them a list of chores to do. My oldest will watch them, not a problem. I will get it all done. I could buy in all the Shabbat food, but the kids are still healing and they love my cooking. They need Ima’s chicken soup and schnitzel. I plan to bake challahs – kneading the dough will probably help me get out a lot of my frustration. But last night I was just so overwhelmed. I need a job-lot of Calgon to take me away. Serenity Now!!

This too shall pass…..Hook up the coffee IV……

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  1. batya from NJ says:

    will he be coming tonight or tomorrow? i’m so happy for u & hopefully having him by your side over the weekend will help you forget all the insanity from this past week!
    have an awesome shabbos together-you both deserve it :)!

  2. Meira_Davi says:

    When I shared with my sweet husband some of the trials you’ve been going through, he said “maybe you should go there and help her.” I said, “well, not this weekend, she has help coming.” :)

    May you have the most peaceful, sweet shabbos.

    • hadassahsabo says:

      MD – Tell your hubby you have been an awesome support to me this week, despite the distance. thanks for that!! HUGS

  3. mekubal says:

    Yup… Once again I am convinced that mother’s are the unsung heroes of the world.

  4. batya from NJ says:

    yeah, maybe the kiddies will allow you 2 a few minutes of quality time together. they’ll be good sports :)!

  5. tesyaa says:

    Being tired is what usually sends me over the edge .. I was going there last night but I made myself go to bed at 10:15, which is like 2 hours earlier than usual.

  6. Rebecca says:

    I hope KoD gets to Canada this weekend, and the kiddies give you lots of quality time alone. Maybe you should have a house meeting with your boys and explain to them that they will have time with KoD, but you need your time first. I think they are should understand. If not, well, send them to me. I don’t have any children at home and miss not having them. Nah, that won’t work…but I would do it if all my conditions at home would match yours. Hope u have a wonderful Shabbat and weekend.

  7. Rebecca says:

    One more thought… could the children go to their father? Does he live close enough so that they could go before Shabbat and come home after sundown on Sat? You deserve it and the children can spend a little time with Kod?

  8. Lady Lock and Load says:

    I am glad that your friends have supported you during this rough week. This is one of the many good things about having a computer, you can reach out and get help from others.

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